Archive | May 2015

You are not alone

Hello everyone and welcome back to another blog post.  I feel like I say that all the time, but it just sounds better than trying to come up with something that makes no sense.  So today I decided to do something different.  I almost never do this…and I don’t put myself out there especially with my singing. The song I chose to sing a cover on is called I am not alone by Kari Jobe.  Kari jobe is a christian artist, who to me is amazing.  Her voice is so refreshing and calming and you can tell she just speaks from the heart.  I love watching her videos on youtube, and this song specifically has just been amazing.  You are not alone.  No matter what you are going through, God is here, and he is listening to you.  He hears everything you say, pray, do, whatever.  And I just want to encourage all of you out there to just seek him and find him and ask him to come into your life.  He is an amazing God and he doesn’t want you to feel alone.

Note to see the video: click here:
or just keep reading til the bottom there’s the video.  Hope you all like it.

Psalm 73:23
Yet I am always with you; you hold me by your right hand.

These two verses are in the video, but I also want to point them out here in the blog post, because I don’t think that anyone should feel like they are never heard, or that they feel like no one cares, about them because God cares about you.  He cares about you even if you think there is no reason why he should, he cares.  Be blessed today, and hopefully this just brings a calming smile and assurance to someone that God is always there for you.


Anxiety…My story, struggles and some helpful hints on dealing with it

Hello everyone and welcome back to another blog post.  Today I want to talk about Anxiety, because it is a disorder, it’s real and it’s a very serious disorder if you don’t know how to take care of it.
So just a little background about anxiety for me.  I have never really had anxiety until I hit about my sophomore year in college.  I was dealing with a lot of things, including my boyfriend at the time just making things really bad for me…and that was my first anxiety attack. Now there are several different anxiety disorders…There’s panic disorder which is where you have feelings of terror or are very scared that just strike at any time and they have no warning.  They are usually known as panic attacks and there are so many symptoms that can arise from that like chest pain, feeling of choking and more.  There’s also social anxiety disorder which is basically that you do not do well in public crowds or social situations. There’s specific disorder which is where you are afraid of specific things like spiders, ants, airplanes, heights, things like that. And there’s generalized anxiety disorder which is where you just worry about things that you don’t need to worry about or otherwise unrealistic. Now for me I have generalized anxiety disorder because a lot of times I do worry about things that are unrealistic or not needed to worry about.  When this happens I get dizzy and I cry a lot, I’m miserable, I just think about the worst possible situation and solution, and then I end up getting in a depression stage that if I don’t get out of fast, can really hurt me and last awhile… and at that point I’m just not myself…and that’s not normal.  There’s not a lot of control that I have, once I get into this state, and most of the time it can come from getting a bad grade in my college class, or getting yelled at by something or whatever.  So all in all, I’m just not very fun to be around and it can really hurt in the end if you cannot find a way to deal with it.  Symptoms can vary depending on the type of anxiety disorder that you have, but here are just some of the ones for general symptoms: feelings of panic, fear, and uneasiness, problems sleeping, cold or sweaty hands and/or feet, shortness of breath, heart palpitations, inability to be still and calm, dry mouth, numbness or tingling in the hands or feet, nausea, Muscle tension, and dizziness.  All of these are to be taken seriously. 
Helpful to deal with any type of anxiety disorder:  Now these are my tips from my experience, if you have other tips, feel free to comment below and share.
1) The way that I deal with it is I try to think positive.  If I think positive, then I can normally stop myself from going in anxiety. 
2) Something else that helps is talking about it.  I’m not one to like have people who can fix it for me, I just want some to help talk out my feelings, and then I decide what I’m going to do about it…because I feel that when someone else can help you talk it through with you, you can clearly see there’s no reason to even have to deal with it and you can be happy. 
3) Another thing I love to do that really helps is listening to music.  I don’t know why but music just makes me feel so much better, and it gets me into a better mood. 
4) Also exercising can really help for pretty much anything because of the fact that it’s making you think about your work out and not about what is making you have those anxiety attacks.
5)And if you don’t know what else to do, see a therapist to help you sort of work through your emotions and maybe then you can get on medication or something to help you get through it and happy again, because everyone deserves to be happy.
Question of the day:

How do you deal with anxiety issues? Is there anything that makes you anxious to the point where you sort of freak out and worry about things that worked themselves out anyway?  Share in the comments below

Note: I try not to share things that I haven’t experienced yet or researched, so if you would like to me to write a blog post on a specific issue or topic, let me know in the comments below.  I’m not a therapist, these are just my own situations and experiences and how I have dealt with it.



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Feeling is the Way to Healing

I haven’t blogged in a few days.  Part of that was because I blogged on two days I normally do not blog, another part was because I was spending time with my almost 2 year old, another part was because I was spending time with my husband, and another part of that was because I had a toothache that would not go away…however despite all of that i am back now, and I want to talk about something that I have been thinking about since I saw it. I’m just going to be writing today, I have no idea how it will come out, so if it is too much for you, or it just feels like I’m rambling, or if you don’t like when someone just talks, then you don’t have to read this.  It’s ok…I will completely understand 🙂

“Feeling is the way to healing”

I saw this saying on twitter by one of my favorite youtubers (Ingrid Nilsen) and I just could not stop thinking about it all week. Every time I thought about writing something about it on this blog, I just couldn’t.  But now I can because of the way that I am feeling.  I have been trying to understand how to feel when I am not sure how to feel, therefore since I don’t know how to feel, I don’t know how to heal. I think a lot, and when I feel something, I really feel it, and I don’t forget the feeling.  Some people might say this is a bad thing, and this can be a bad thing, but to me…it’s a way of coping with so many issues that I have about myself and with others.  I feel confused, hurt, lost, overjoyed, glad, sad, happy, and all of these feelings really scare me to death.  They are feelings that I can not understand.  They are feelings that I just can’t overcome and heal from. I want to, I want to forget about so many things, people, events…but I can’t.  I want to not feel like I have lost myself, but that is what I feel. I’m so not connected to who I am anymore…I’m not connected to who was..I’m connected to what I feel inside…and that’s destructive.  When I feel…I want to feel…I don’t want to let go of anything, I don’t want to forget any moment of that feeling.  I don’t want to disconnect from the feeling…I want to feel it all…no matter how painful, happy, seductive..loneliness..sad..depressed..confused…I feel…I want to feel it all…The moment when I feel it…is the moment I start to heal. And it’s interesting to me, how when you are made to feel something, that is when you have the option to heal from it.  When you see a therapist, or a psychologist…they often make you go back to when you felt the way you felt…sometimes it’s a place that you don’t want to go back to, that you want to forget, that you feel the most pain in or whatever, and they make you feel it…because when you feel it, you can start to understand it, change it, and heal from it. I’m a fighter, a dreamer, an emotional personal…and my emotions can go all over the place, but when I feel…what I feel, that is when I feel the most alive, and that is when I know I can start to heal.  I know this may not make sense to a lot of you…but I’m just writing today, and this is what I’m writing.  When you feel…Feel to eventually heal…don’t feel to linger, but feel to fight and heal whatever is there.  It’s ok to cry…just know that when you finally let yourself feel, you can finally let yourself heal.

Question of the week:

Are you ok with “feeling to heal…or do you feel to linger?”  This is a weird question, but I think it can have a really great meaning to someone who actually reads it and thinks about it for awhile.

Letter to my younger self

Hey guys and today on my blog I am going to be writing an open letter to my younger self…so let’s get to it 🙂 I am now 25 so this letter will be from when I was 18 to now.

Dear younger Self,

   First of all I want to tell you that I’m proud of you.  You have a beautiful personality that just makes people fall in love with you. I’m proud of you for staying strong. Right now you are going through so many different emotions because of different tragedies and things that are happening and I want you to know that life does get better as you get older.  I’m proud of you for always standing your ground and standing up for what you think is right because in the end, it does pay off.  I want you to know that in the future you will have a beautiful family…a  husband that in his own way, really loves you and a little boy that is so cute and amazing that  all you can do is love him no matter what he does. I want you know that eventually things will work out for the best with your in laws…no matter what the result is, just be strong and don’t let the way that they act towards you bring you down or make you feel unworthy because you are an amazing woman, wife, mother, daughter and more. I want you to know that your parents will be your greatest supporters…when you need anything, they will be there.  Right now you are not quite sure what direction your life will go in, and you may have some d-tours down the line, but know that in the future, you will be successful and you will be right where God wants you to be. I want you know that God loves you and he is here for you, and the hurt that you feel right now, will go away because in every rainy season, there is a rainbow at the end…which is a promise from God to you.  But  most importantly, never give up hope, never forget who you are and never lose the smile that just brights up anyone’s day.

Love future me 🙂

Question for the day:

If you could write a letter to your younger self, what would you say?  Now since you know what your life is like, what would you want to tell your younger self?  Leave your answers in the comments.  I also encourage you to write a letter to your younger self, and then read it, to see what you have learned now in your life.